Tuesday, August 9, 2011

The Very Last Week of my 20s.

A week from today, I will be 30, and I'm sorta petrified.

I know better than to let the "norms" get to me, but lately, they've started creeping in.  Aren't I supposed to have gotten married by now?  Had a kid?  Bought a house?  Saved some money?  Maybe that last one would have been possible had I not decided to move to the second most expensive city in the country.

The scariest part is that the other day, I remembered a conversation I had with a co-worker at Balboa several years ago, and it felt like yesterday.  We were talking in my office, and I said, "Sometimes I just feel like I want to up and move to Argentina or something!"  He laughed and said, "How old are you?"  I said, "25."  And he said, "Yeah.  You're so young.  That's why you feel that way."

1. OMG how was I just 25 what feels like yesterday?  How on earth have 5 years passed by in the blink of an eye?
2. I still feel that way, sucka.

Here's how I've spent my summer, for the most part:

With some travel, visitors, good exercise, lots of time with Milo and Jude, and puzzling out a relationship thrown in.  Oh, and wasting a decent amount of time playing Tiny Tower.

I'm not a "bucket list" kind of person in the least.  I kinda feel like all of life is an adventure, and I have continuous goals/dreams/etc. that will span out my whole life . . . and they can't be diminished to a checklist of things I want to have accomplished by a certain age.  And yet, somehow, this coming week is shouldering a lot of pressure!  Last week of my 20's!  Anyone want to go to Vegas?


Leeann @ Join the Gossip said...

Vegas woot woot! My friend lives there and I have been meaning to visit...hehe :)

Claire, you are like fine wine and get better with age. Feeling better? OK what about this: you're in great shape, have men lusting after you, and lots of friends who love you. 30 is going to be amazing! Anyways I hear 30 is the new 20...not that I'd know bahaha jk! Love ya!

Ashley said...

So the feeling of wanting to get up, go, and get out of here doesn't go away when you are turning 30? So I can't blame it on the fact that I'm turning 25 this year. Good to know... need to work on this now.

Enjoy your last week in your 20's. Your going to make 30 look really good! =)

Dee Stephens said...

The 30's is where you start to figure it out! Be glad you didn't get married in your 20's. A lot of my friends who did are divorced or currently getting divorced and I'm just about to turn 36! Cheers to 30! Hit up VEGAS too! Because ..why not?

Meghan said...

YES! I love THE VEGAS! We're so going!

Girl, you are going to love your 30's! Who cares what you are "supposed" to have done by now? I definitely feel the same sometimes (especially when everyone hounds me about when the hubs and I are going to "buy a house in the suburbs and have kids"), but all that matters is that you are living a life that you love! ROCK IT!

nicoleciomek said...

You will do well in your 30s. I started thinking how YOUNG 20 is. I mean, we are barely adults. So far, I am finding 30 to be A-OK so far. A lot of older people told me they loved their 30s best.

I personally found my 20s to be a HUGE period of growth. But, I think my 30s will be more settled. I actually know I want now, which is nice. And personally, I think ladies are at their hottest in their 30s. So, there is that!

I think it is very, very common to think "Oh I should have done, this, this and this" and worry and fret about the future and have you made the most of the past decade. We didn't worry about these things at 20, because from 10-20 you go from being a child to an adult, and that's an exciting change. But the difference from 20 to 30 is different.. its like we were supposed to grow into proper adults in this time and do all those proper adult things. I say, fuck it. You seem like you have an awesome life and that you are enjoying it! Keep the party rolling :)

Enjoy your last week of your 20s, and celebrate up this week!

AmericanBridget (Jones) said...

30 is young to me. I turned 30 while living in SF, how many people can say they moved across the country to follow dreams and got to live in one of the most amazeball cities in our country. HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY! And like Leann said, you do get better with age.

Now on to other important deets like,"puzzling out a relationship thrown in..."

More please :)!

Laurnie said...

Im about to turn 32, and if it wasn't for my boyfriend, I would still want to up and move somewhere exotic (not that he makes me stay, but my priorities shift). Going into my 2nd year of my thirties, I agree that they are sweeter. And no one says you have to be married with kids by now

Phoenix Peacock said...

there is no rule book when it comes to life. do what you want when you want and ignore any bystanders who think you are "supposed" to be doing something else!

robayre said...

I can't believe you are turning 30, I thought you were just early 20s! Actually, maybe I found that out before, but I just refused to believe, you look so young. Well join the club. I'm 33 and still have the mentality of a 23 year old and figure I'll probably feel like that for the rest of my life. Although just this last week I did a very grown up thing off of your list, my boyfriend and I bought a house!

Claudia said...

I have about 2.5 months of my twenties left but my life is so dull compared to yours it feels more like I'm in my 40s or 50s
You seem to have lots of fun judging by your blog, so more power to you!

drollgirl said...

so you are telling me you are a leo?! LEOS RULE. i am a leo! lol. and you will be ok! you are doing great! you live in a fab city, you work in a job you love, and you are always ALWAYS having so much fun! the other stuff is next, and it will happen.

i am not a giant fan of vegas, or i would meet you there!

i think you should go to argentina for six months. that would be AWESOME!

p.s. turning FORTY IS MUCH MUCH MUCH WORSE than turning 30. shudder.

Micaela said...

I'M IN!!! vegas baby!!! ;)

if your 30th year will be anything like the summer you've had, then baby you have no worries! this will be your year, i just know it! so be excited and welcome your fabulous 30's with a glass of wine and cheers to the new adventures that are awaiting. i love you and wish i could spend your birthday together.


inHERshoes said...

haha! don't worry, i think all of us feel some type of anxiety depending on which birthday it is. it's natural, we all have our quirks.

bananas. said...


i'm actually going next month so maybe not...but had you asked me about a month ago, i would TOTALLY be there! lol.

here's to your last weekin your 20's...have fun, live it up and DANCE. a lot. and laugh...'cause everyone loves to laugh.

starnes family said...

30's are the best years! Promise.

Miss Caitlin S. said...

I know, it's definitely an interesting feeling, I just turned 27 and I'm starting to feel a bit like whoa, I'm 3 years until 30?!? Can't I be carefree and reckless for much longer?? Like you, I don't feel pressure to have something by a certain age but also like you, I question it sometimes. At the end of the day though, like you said, just go with it- it's all an adventure!

Summer Athena said...

um, i am there. would have to fly in on sat am though but i will be there.

i love you and love that you are in my life.

Marisa Crawford said...

I know what you mean, Claire! I can't believe I am almost 30 & I feel like I was just 25. I can't believe I met you when I was only 23!!! I felt so old! & it feels like yesterday. You will be doing great at 30 & have already accomplished so much! I wish I could spend your birthday with you! xoxoxo

Marz said...

Oh how I love that a pic of our girls trip made your summer collage!!! :) I loved that trip so much!! So I say let's TOTALLY do Vegas :) I'm in :)

Claire I want you to know my biggest regret is not ever truly leaving home. Never going for that dream of mine to live in a city I truly love and lust over (London) because I let fear cripple me. YOU have done it. You've gone for your goals and desires! That's a MAJOR accomplishment - and all before your 30's! And you're doing a job you love and are passionate about, as well as your prison work - you're making a difference in this world!

Don't let thirty be scary. You're thirty & fabulous! :) I love you so, so much!! Wish we could be celebrating at a biker bar together!!!! xoxo

Erin {pughs' news} said...

I've loved my 30s so far. I'm sure yours will be as amazing as you!

Faiza said...


have to say i love how people overseas put a "the" in front of vegas! megan's comment made me laugh!

Leesh said...

I was extremely happy when I turned 30. I thought I would be upset but it was a good turning point for me. I was please with where I was at the day I turned 30. I was recently married and moved into my first home. An accomplishment for me just before I entered a new decade of my life.

happy 30 to you. Welcome to the club.