Monday, September 26, 2011

Emerging from my Rabbit Hole

Well, that was quite a blog break there, wasn't it?  Last week was one for the record books, and I was in no place to share any thoughts with the world.  But today's a new day (and a new week), and things are feeling a little less burdensome.  Plus, my team won yesterday.  That always helps.

Weighing most heavily on my mind last week was Georgia's execution of Troy Davis.  Here is a really compelling piece written by the former GA Department of Corrections Commissioner, Allen Ault, on the true cost (emotionally, psychologically) of executions.  I urge you to read it, but if you don't have time, here is just one quote I find particularly interesting, given that it is coming from a former warden/DOC commissioner:


Having witnessed executions firsthand, I have no doubts: capital punishment is a very scripted and rehearsed murder. It’s the most premeditated murder possible.


My family was at the vigil for Troy Davis outside the prison in Jackson, GA.  Although I wish I could have been there with them, I was pretty proud that they were there.  My stepmom, sister, and brother-in-law updated me with haunting pictures as we all awaited the ruling from the U.S. Supreme Court:




I'm ashamed and a little bit heartbroken that Georgia executed Troy Davis, but the fight for justice continues.  If I didn't believe it were possible, I wouldn't keep up the struggle.  May we all be proactive and fight for what we believe in, whatever that may be.

In other sad news, this guy isn't doing well:


Ignatius has arthritis, Cushing's Disease, and is in a lot of pain.  He is currently receiving pain medication at the vet's office, but it's just a matter of time.  I've been struggling a lot with this, as he's been the center of all our family's stories for the past 11 years.  I can't imagine us without him.  Ignatius is my very favorite non-human and my attachment to him is pretty deep.  It's even harder being so far away right now . . . the idea that I will never see him again is eating away at me. :(

I'm trying to dig myself out of the sad hole, though.  Talking to my girls a lot, takeout Chinese with my roommate, spending my weekends in the wine country.  All of these things help, though death is never an easy struggle.

I hope all of you are doing well--I'm eager to catch up on your blogs.  I've missed you!

20 comments:

Ren- Lady Of The Arts said...

Aw- so sorry that Ignatius is not doing well- I hope he is comfortable for now.

AmericanBridget (Jones) said...

Claire, I am proud your family got to attend the vigil. What a life (and death) experience, though somber and very eye-opening.

In other news, it breaks my heart to read about Ig. Oh my goodness. He's such a character and I loved reading that he's been the center of stories for 11 years. He's so freaking cute in that picture and I will have my two beagles give him a virtual shout out. I hope he gets to feeling better and can pull through this. How's your dad holding up?

Faiza said...

HUGS to you my Claire.

I cannot believe that Troy Davis was executed or that this archaic practice of capital punishment still exists in parts of the US. It is madness and makes me so angry and disaapointed in us as a human race to know this goes on. I can't even imagine what it must be like to be as immersed in this as you are.

So sorry to hear about Ignatius as well but I must say as someone who never had a pet, how lucky for your family to have loved an animal and been loved by an animal this way.

HUGS!

kimbirdy said...

oh i share your heartache. it's a tragedy and extreme disappointment that troy davis was executed. it's shocking to me that things can be so cut and dry to our government when it involves a human life. what was that about PROVEN guilty? but i suppose with all of the other tragic choices our government makes {and the fact our leaders have mental illnesses} i can't really be all that surprised. it's one of those things that makes me ashamed to be living in the US. but i read your blog and am reminded that there are still good, reasonable people in our country, and hopefully we can all keep speaking out until our voices are heard and change comes about.

and i'm so sorry to hear about your pup! my stepmom is deaf so she has a hearing dog who literally goes everywhere with us. she's more than part of our family so i understand fully just how much love there is between us and our nonhuman family members. we just found out she has aggressive tumors all over her body and i'm not sure how much time she has. i won't get to see her and say goodbye either since she lives in a different state. it's heartbreaking to lose a member of your family like this and it's even harder when you can't be there. i'm so sorry and i feel your pain. i hope that we can both find ways to say goodbye in our own ways and that we can both take care of ourselves. hugs!

undomestic chica said...

So sorry to hear about Ignatius, I can't even imagine. My heart hurts for Troy Davis and all those close to him....and also our contry's leaders because clearly there is something wrong.

erin elder said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your pup... I know what it's like to see a furry friend suffer, and it is one of the most heart wrenching feelings... it can make you feel so helpless. :(

Believe me I know what it's like to need a little blog break... when you have so much going on, it can be difficult to find the time or energy to muster up a post that you find interesting enough to put out there for others to read...or maybe that's just me.

i am so glad you are back!! here's to a wonderful week and hoping things get better and better!!! :)

drollgirl said...

oh girl. you have been going through so much.

the execution quote says it all. :[

and i am so sorry to hear about your ignatius. the fur friends are so fabulous, and it hurts so much to lose them, or to know that we will lose them soon. so much. i am tearing up just thinking about it.

hugs to you, and i hope this week is much better for you than last week.

Meghan said...

Oh Claire, I am sending you lots of positive vibes. I definitely agree with your stance on the Troy Davis execution, and I think it's incredible that your family attended the vigil! I hope this week is much better for you!

nicoleciomek said...

so sorry to hear about Ignatius.... I hope he gets better. I will keep my fingers crossed. I know the importance of fuzzy friends in a family. Hopefully this week will be a better one for ya!

Leeann @ Join the Gossip said...

You know I ♥ you and am just an email away! Still sending puppy prayers your way. He's a tough little shit so I'm hoping he pulls through.

I hope this week is much better for you :)

Deals, Steals and Heels said...

i'm sending you a big-time internet hug....when it rains, it pours doesn't it??

April said...

*HUGS* My cat died while I was at school and it was so hard. :( And Troy Davis, there are no words. Or too many words.

Jax said...

I am so, so sorry about Ignatius. :( Sending many hugs, prayers, thoughts, puppy love, and everything else I can muster. I am truly saddened about your friend and furry family member. Love you, girl.

And very proud to hear you say the things you did about the execution. I agree 100%. Such a horrible, disgusting, sad thing...

H. Gillham said...

Big hugs, darlin'. Sorry about the pup....

Sadness is just a momentary thing; it hits us all sometimes. Emerge. Twirl. Read. Listen to music. That will bring you around....

Crazy Shenanigans-JMO said...

I'm sorry to hear the poor little guy isn't doing well.

bananas. said...

i don't know the right words to say but just know sadness is temporary. remember that.

sending you lots of virtual hugs and bulldog kisses.

hang in there love♥

this free bird said...

i'm thinking of you Claire. The Troy Davis execution is still bothering me...there is so much evidence. I'm just sickened by the whole thing.

And Ignatius? Oh gawd Claire. You know I know where you are on this. I'm sending you squeezes. I think you need to go visit him. Call you dad. Go hug it out girl. What I would have done for an afternoon with Gray. :(

xo,
C

Allison said...

The Troy Davis execution shocked and appalled me to the highest extreme - I couldn't believe that given the lack of evidence and the recanting of witness testimonies. When I heard that Georgia actually went through with it, and that the Supreme Court ruled against clemency, my heart was just breaking - for Troy, his family, those who support him, and all the other Troys out there. I am so impressed with your family, and wish I could have been standing there with them! How impressive and heartwarming that despite the outcome, your family was there to support such a noble cause - I'm really, really proud of them (and they aren't even my family!). On Facebook, a lot of statuses of my friends said, "I can't believe Troy Davis was executed, while Casey Anthony is sitting free at home." That really summed it up to me - whether it's race related or what, the discrepancies in our justice system.
I'm also so, so sorry to hear about Ignatius - I know how close of a bond we form with our pets, and my heart just breaks - I wish I had something more profound to say to ease all that you're feeling/going through, but all I can say is that I'm always an email away if you need to vent/talk/whatever. You (and Ignatius!) are so strong - I'm pulling for you and hoping that things will get better soon, girl. xox

Down and Out Chic said...

the execution was a sad, sad day in georgia. i'm glad your family was there to make a stand though. thinking about you. xo

Marz said...

My heart breaks for you.

It broke when I heard about Troy Davis :( That picture of the sign "Am I Next?" gave me chills :( How frustrating it must be to fight injustice when tragic setbacks like these happen. But then I think of the West Memphis Three case and I know that it is because of dedicated people like you that gave them justice. You are amazing and you inspire me!!

My heart hurts for you and your family. I can't imagine what your daddy must be going through :( I remember when we stayed with you and you were talking to your dad on speaker and we heard him talking about Ig and we could hear him the background :) It hurts when a beloved pet who is part of the family is hurting :( Our family still misses our chihuahua after all these years. It hurts, but it's comforting to know all dogs go to heaven!

Sending you lots of comforting hugs and kisses. I'm here for you anytime!!! I love you Claire xo